scattered thoughts.

I haven't written in months because I'm not quite sure how to get all the thoughts from my mind to come out in a clear and coherent manner.

Over the years I've really tried hard to be an optimist - to see the good in things and people. I've given second, third and even fourth chances only to be let down continually. All in the name of being optimistic.

Well these days I'm forced to be a realist - and unfortunately that means that I have to consider the negatives and weigh them carefully.

We're just one family affected by the oil crisis in the Gulf - but it's going to change our lives and I can't quite wrap my head around it all just yet.

We're forced to consider our options and they aren't very pretty if we're talking about where we are at the moment.

Now where's my bottle of xanex?

On water and "home" and changes

There's nothing like a little water to turn your life upside down.

Last week what I thought was a little water from a roof leak turned into a major supply line leak - tons of water hidden under cabinets and flooring and a lot of mold. 

In less than an hour the cabinets were ripped out and apart, flooring ripped up and out and the walls followed shortly after that. 

The house isn't realistically livable - especially after the boxed up contents of my kitchen, along with salvagable cabinets and appliances were piled into my living room and the room sealed off with plastic.

I guess we could live in the 3 bedrooms and bathroom, at least that's what the insurance company tried to say - but I won out - thankfully the adjustor agreed that it wasn't a good environment for the kids to be around. 

So at the moment we're living in a beautiful condo in Destin - one owned by people we know - who graciously offered it to us. Who knows how long we'll be here or any of that  - it seems to be moving in slow motion now. 

just wanted to let you know what's going on...